Last day of Chemo!

This is the last day of chemo and if we have no set backs we can go back to Grandma's tomorrow. I am looking forward to getting out as this week has been a hard week. I think i am just getting tired and a little run down and like Brody getting sick of it all. Brody has had a craving for Smith's chips. Chips for breaky, lunch and dinner. At least he had a apple in between the chips. He cant stand the smells from hot meals, which makes it hard for me to eat anything near him. Brody is also still very moody, but still wants huggles from mummy. Which has helped as mummy has felt very emotional today!

Its a lonely and emotional thing to go through, even though you have support from family and friends you still feel so alone. You sit and wonder why this had to happen and why did so much have to happen to my little man.

When i was little i wished like many girls for a house, husband and a couple of kids with a happy healthy life. Then those dreams have got shattered over the years and you just wonder why!

Like many others, i was shattered to find out Brody had Autism and needed extra help, I dint know how i was going to cope doing this alone, but my years as a early childhood teacher helped me research and understand what i had to do. So i knew i had to accept this and move forward for Brody. Then when i found out he had Cancer my world come to a halt, I was angry with everyone and again was devastated by the news. This was some thing bigger and beyond me. I didn't know where to start or how i would even be able to do this. But 5 months have passed and i have learnt so much, meet so many wonderful people and I know I have tried my best and been there for Brody through out all of his years. We still have so much more to go through and discover. But i know that this experience has given me the best thing of all. My Little man's love and friendship. I wouldn't ask for any thing else.